taking the chinese paper can realli be a dispiriting affair.
to actually see and realize tt im seriously lacking behind in my language, it realli served as a wake up call, calling me, begging me to do more and prevent this whole calamity from persisting.
it is selfish to keep someone u love to urself.
but isnt it more selfish, to push someone hu loves u away?
wad devastated me the most was not my disability to answer the ques accordingly, but...nvm.
im most positively sure that they didnt mean it.
so i will just..put it aside.
ure struggling, ure fighting, ure persisting.
hold on. Hang on. and all will not go to waste.
And to my dear frens,
thx all for ur comforts tt actually warmed my heart.
they didnt realli help alot in easing the pain tt dwells inside
but they surely proved and assured me that i am fortunate to have frens, wonderful marvelous frens, like u ppl.
as quoted frm Lewis : God has planned it sui sui for me
everything has a purpose.
and its purpose will inculcate certain values and lessons in me, to become a better person.
so...as adviced frm Joseph, i shall go sleep now and watch the sun rise tmr and see a brighter hope each day lolz.
QP, hang on. (:
they're not.
but then again hu am i to complain, when so many ppl out there are sufferring much more than me?
its been a long time since i posted anything lols.
might as well close my blog and see the same old bar of words again.
but aint gonna do tt for some silly reasons hoho.
now for the past few days, once again many different ppl have enlightened me in many different ways.
the most recent one wld be Reuben Ho!
yea ive realli gotta thank him lols.
long story short, just by reading his post alone, has inspired me spiritually and yet at the same time, made me feel guilty of myself and start tinking more in depth of wad i have been doin for the past 1 and a half years ever since i accepted Christ.
and sadly yes, im growing further and further from Him with each passing day.
sometimes i wonder to myself, why ponder so much on other things and not on God?
why think so much abt wad im gonna buy, where im gonna go for shopping, who am i gonna date, wad results im gonna get, how is my family gonna turn out, when i can be spending more time with Him?
ahh shucks.
my mind is in turmoil = =
for the past few horrible weeks, where it felt as if i was fighting a war without an army, i cld realli see hu realli cared, and hu didnt.
ok i dun wanna continue on this topic becoz i noe nth gd will come out of this. lols.
yea im stressed, O lvl MT is just 4-3 days away, and im not even 50% prepared.
argh.
cant take it lols. i will just list out some of the words i wld use shld i ever continue talking abt TT topic i just mentioned. For relieving stress purposes lol:
Forlorn Hope
Disappointment
Unexpected
Foolish
Naive
Girl
where
when
needed
unwanted absence
Trust
Fear
Hope
Sorry
hohos. im still feeling all cramped up. just wanna let it all out, but hu can i vent everything out on?
and i noe i had done many foolish, SUPERBLY FOOLISH, things which caused much dismay and aversion amongst the ppl i love.
I'm Sorry
DISCIPLINE ppl. DISCIPLINE.
i apologise for the random lines.
the whole post is in a mess lols.
i just..nid a break.
but unfortunately many unwanted things prevent me from having one -.-
shoo U!
shoo!
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MY HAMSTER IS GETTING FATTER! xD
ok bak to the main point.
my results were
hoho both languages failed, 4 Cs, 1 A and 1 B
LOLs. - -
i had alreadi expected myself to fail eng coz i screwed it up, big time lmao
why must eng be the first paper! T.T
moreover, why does it have to be paper 1!
i had a blank mind for half an hour.
this is wad happens when ure stressed and still adapting to the new environment lols.
EXCUSES LOLs.
the result tt surprised me the most and caused me to be dumbfounded was biology.
i studied a little bit b4 the exam commenced for paper 2 and i didnt even touch my biology txtbk for the whole weekend and went to take the exam for paper 1 just like tt.
hoho and guess wad, i passed my paper 2 by 4 marks and wads most astounding was, i got 29/40 for paper 1, the one where i didnt touch my biology txtbk or even study >.>
overall, i got a B4 for bio. not bad for someone hu spent minimum time studying on tt sub lols.
the paper tt i was most proud of was physics.
i admit tt i spent the most time on physics and thankfully i managed to pass.
wad makes it even more satisfying wif my results is Mrs Shermeen Lee praising me infront of the whole class.
the feeling is realli wonderful and it definitely motivates me hahs.
i will work harder to achieve my goal and of course to save my dad's face lmao
he is the genius in the house and his kids are..lets just say not as intelligent in physics as he is. hahs
well though its just a C6, its a step closer to getting higher grades.
so i feel tt my effort has paid off for this round.
nxt stop, PRELIMS
another one of those paper i was proud of as well was chemistry. and its all thanks to none other than THAMHIN korx2 lmao
when i calculated the overall results and saw tt i passed, i was on the verge of tears LOLs.
seriously.
ive finally passed! HAHA! woooo~
a step forward and time to take a bigger step ahead.
Chinese 'O' lvl examinations are just around the corner. roughly 12 days i guess?
ive gotta work hard like crazy.
have to squeeze 15 -16 yrs of chinese education into 12 days effectively.
and if i fail to do so, horrible results will be the consequence.
chinese hasnt been my forte anyway -.- well actually it used to but...things happen lols.
but still im gonna try.
even if i failed, at least i didnt fail without even trying and giving wadever ive got.
"Giv everything till we've nth left"
tt phrase and its meaning will always stay wif me, instilled in my life.
speaking of which, POP is this sat!
gonna officially step down on tt very day.
sad huh =/ well to some it wld be a magnificent day for them lols.
love ya guys! huever u are lols.
funny thing abt me is, ive got loads of things to say, ive even prepared it up in my head.
just tt when it comes to blogging, 60% of it is forgotten lols.
owell.
take cares ya'll
all the best for the never-ending exams :D
byes! ^^
oyea, b4 i 4get..
in 2 hrs and 35 mins time..its gonna be Lewis's birthday!
soo..since im not gonna be on9 at 12 midnight..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEWIS!!
i shall spare ur life since its ur birthday hoho.
till then peeps!
looks like im one of the 8 "lucky" ppl to get tagged..by LEWIS *givs tt disgruntled look* lmao jkjk.
A) people who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.B) tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. these people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people
#1 if your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
everything has a reason so of course i will hope to noe why b4 i jump into conclusions lols. but the typical me will just kip quiet and wait till he decides to tell mua.
#2 if you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
er...for me to noe, for u to find out xD
#3 what will your dream wedding be like?
mmm..i dunno? beautiful dresses are a must though. xD and hopefully the wedding will be held in an extraordinary beautiful place. hehs. ps: no kopitiam pls LOLs. jkjk :x
#4 are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
sometimes yes, and sometimes no lols. but like wad Lewis said, God has alreadi planned it sui sui for me lmao
#5 what's your ideal lover like?
mm..long story short. orginal, yet outstanding. females can be realli demanding and fastidious lols. well, its all part of natural selection i guess? hahs. everyone wants to spend their life filled wif different variety of colours :D . right?
#6 which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
its hard to choose between those 2. =/
#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love? serious!!
how wld i noe if i realli loved tt someone at tt single moment? yea sure, it takes a moment to fall in love, and a moment to lose all of tt "special" feeling but.. onli time will tell. lols.
#8 if the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? Wait for him/her to break up?
depends. if tt person is worth waiting for then yea, i'll wait. but of course i wun hope for them to break up -.- actually..on second thought, nah..i dun tink i will wait lols. hu noes, if i ever got to be wif him eventually, i might get kicked out the nxt day just like how he did to his previous girlfriends. its called fear ppl. hehs. well..it all depends (:
#9 is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
numerous, countless, LOADS of them.
#10 what do you want most in life?
mm..to live the rest of my life wif someone whom i can realli trust and depend on. Other than God.
#11 is being tagged fun?
NOOOO!!! T-T *gets rdy an axe to chop off Lewis's head* yet..YESSS!! xD *places the axe gently on the grassy patch of grass*
#12 how do you see yourself in ten years time?
leading a great life. but onli if im willing and doing my "homework" now. lols
#13 who are currently the most important people to you?
My siblings, parents and frens :D lols basically everyone :x
#14 what kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A great and nice guy. mmm..have realli gd relationships wif his peers perhaps?
#15 would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
well tt depends on hu im gonna be married to lols.
#16 what are the 3 characteristics you dislike about people?
ppl hu take things for granted, ppl hu are..mmm...too self-centered and those hu simply assume without finding out the bleak truth.
#17 what are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
make empty promises
#18 what kind of person do u think u are?
A reticent individual
#19 Give 3 sentences to summarise a few characteristics which you hope not to have.
A person who hopes alot, but rarely believes.
A weak individual, with barely any Hope and Faith to work with
A self-centered fiend filled with greed and immoral values
#20 A train carrying many passengers is heading towards a broken viaduct and right beside you is this rolly polly man. Will you throw the man to stop the train and save the passengers, or spare him and leave the train alone, waiting for the disaster to happen? Choose between these 2 answers.
leave the train alone and wait for the disaster to happen. AND feel very guilty and hurt after that. =/
Tagged by : obviously LEWIS
Here are the 8 lucky people[victims] who are gonna be tagged:
Abdullah
Hanisah
Janice
Yesmeen
ZiLing
QianPing
Joseph
MeiQi
ok ppl, im sad, confused, angry, frustrated, irritated yet, i feel so blissful.
argh i hate it when he does tt -.-
and i can bet on my lucky stars tt none of ya'll noe wad im toking abt LOLs.
owell. expect the unexpected. BOO!
hoho ive opened my beloved blog again!
man closing my blog is equivalent to...i dunno? making life even more mundane? lols
cant stand it whenever i go to my blog and see onli one bar of words.
it makes my blog sooo..EMPTY - -
currently revising chem wif Thamhin Shifu lmao
i guess i nidda focus on the "lesson" now lols.
will update u guys on some stuff soon!
in the mean time...live ur life to the fullest ppl!(suddenly tot of this phrase on Abdullah's display nick :x)
ok im haphazardly picking lines to fill in this post lmao.
cya ltr ^^